And just like that, he is gone

And just like that, he is gone

Foster care is hard, y’all. You can imagine. I wouldn’t allow myself to think about how I would feel, until it was time. I wouldn’t allow myself to dabble there. I couldn’t. The pain is real, even when you cause it. We chose this particular path for him. He is where he should be. Hell, I think he is where he should stay. He is so happy. He is so loved. I see it in their face. I pray for them. I pray for him. 

Me? I’m okay. The boys? They are okay. Ramsey has asks about him all the time and so has Bear. He says “I miss him so much mama. I love him.” But he knows where he is and how this works. We are very open with the boys, as much as we can be. They understand how this goes, as much as their little brains will allow. 

Bj and I keep thinking, “we need to check on the babe” or we need to get him ready when heading out but he isn’t here any longer. We don’t have to make bottles, pack his bag for day care or wipe his nose. We don’t have to replace the sheet on his crib mattress any more. You know, the one that you see standing up right so every time I pass it, I don’t search for him. 

 

What is one small reform you think would most benefit the foster care community?

I think what would benefit everyone involved in foster care is everyone who is fighting for the childs best interest is on the same page, all the time. I think working together, with mutual respect, would benefit everyone involved and would not be that hard to do. You just do it. 

 

ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Mika is happily married to an adventure seeker, mama bear to boys + a few, depending on the season. Coffee, foster care, wandering in the forest, baseball games, mini vans, breastfeeding, emojis and hashtags are my jam. Motherhood defines me and I strive to be a {gentle} parent, though that mainly means I'm always begging Jesus to take the wheel

Connect with Mika through Instagram @thebeggsbunch or on her blog at www.TheBeggsBunch.com

Our beautiful mess

Our beautiful mess

Building safe relationships with our child's parents

Building safe relationships with our child's parents